I'm glad that you helped me to understand you better. I'm sorry that I have/had been bringing you down. I just want to know that you forgive me Rayna and will continue to tell me how you really feel. If there's something that you don't like about what I'm doing, tell me now. I just want you to continue to tell me how you feel. Don't let it get to the point that you have to question us being together and we both have to get upset again...

Yes I'm sorry that I was jealous of Emily being with you all the time, I just wished it was me that was the person you were with all the time but I wasn't considerate of your wants. I'm sorry that I didn't really take an interest in what you were doing when you told me. I was also jealous and worried about you joining ROTC because I didn't want you to get hurt and I wanted to join the military but I can't unless I go through a really stressful situation and as much as I want to, I don't think I can handle it myself.

I love you more than anything. I'm always here for you. No matter how hurtful you think it may be to tell me how you feel, you should know that I don't care how hurtful it is, I want to know. If you have to get something off of your chest, you know where to look and who to turn to. I'm always here for you. I'm sure, other than your mom, that I'm the only person that truly cares about you and feels this way towards you.

Just remember that I too am trying to mature. You help me mature by doing this. Also I'm one of the few people that you can really talk to about how you really feel and won't argue with you or judge you.

I love you so much, I don't know how else I can express it really. All I ask for is to know that you do forgive me and will give me a chance at better understanding you. I also, not that I feel right asking you this, would like you to show that you care about me the same way and want to know how I am. I feel wrong for asking because I feel a little selfish and I don't want to be selfish at all.

I'm also sorry if I repeated myself but, telling this is helping me feel even more better as well. I also want to make sure that everything is clear.